A night off!

So, it's about six o'clock down here in Toronto & I'm about to get up and make plans with my main g! We're gunna head out and go for dinner & stuff then later on hit up a party. Yeah.. in Toronto they throw parties on tuesday it's so weird. Coming from a small town clubs open thursday - saturday in Toronto it's eeerrynight.

I need a break, I haven't been out in a good minute and I need to do something a bit different than the regulah. It's weird because I always have opportunities to go out, I'm forever being invited to parties but I choose not to go, I swear this birthday coming up is making me think I may be getting old.

speaking of birthdays, my working gyal Tika hit me up yesterday asking me what I wanna do... I haven't even given it much thought, she wants to take me away for the bday, I'm considering it.. we will see what's poppin.

Anyways enough for today, tomorrow back to the grind, working out, work and the whole speal I have a meeting on thursday at the Agency.. let's hope they think I'm sexy enough to go to Milan this summah ;)

I need proof 09'

So, I finally hit up the photographer Walter Singh that I did that shoot with a little while ago and asked him for a couple shots from the shoot we did. He's such a cool guy, he sent them right away and here they are for you. These are unedited photo's from the shoot but just thought I'd give you a chance to see what the set was like & the styling that was done.
My stylist for the shoot was Sean Beckingham such a cool dude! He gave me a lot of info on the business and overall both guys were amazing to be around.

We plan on working together in the near future so, i'll keep you posted on those developments.

Christian

I don't give love the time of day...

It sucks but it's the down right truth when it comes to me. One day i'll be ready to love but for right now I have too much to take care of to add another distraction in my life. And how do I know that it's a distraction? I wouldn't say I was in love but I was crushin' real hard on my ex fling/ting/piece/chic/girl whatever you wanna call her. It was such a good feeling but it definetely took up a lot of time even when you didn't want it to. At the end, I ended up moving to toronto and we kick it whenever I'm in town or she's down but a new "ting" isn't going to happen anytime soon.

Well... actually if it happens it will happen but trust me I'm not looking for it and it can be hard to catch my attention at times. I feel like young people have a difficult time trying to find and understand themselves much less someone else. Once I get my career and get the things I need to get done at a reasonable (my type of reasonable) place then I can consider giving love a chance until then.... the title stays ;)

Anyways got bored aftaa my late night jog so the cam came out here are a couple snaps I been takeennn!

Christian

Friday

Today was a pretty boring day on my end. I hit the gym in the am, went out for lunch, came home and researched/did some work for a couple projects. It's a friday night and I'm just not bout it to go out or do anything. Am I really getting old? haha

It's weird but I have this fear about being old and I have no idea why. I mean all my friends are pretty much older than me and their lives are fine but for me getting old just scares me. Anyways so my goal this year is to work and travel. I have been dying to head out to New York to work on my modelling and hustle some music stuff while being down there. I also really would like to do some work out in Europe....that is really the reason why I have been working my ass of at the gym and watching (for the most part) what I eat.

Don't really have much to ssay tonight so I'm out. Hope your friday night is much more interesting than over hurrr!

My opinion

So I've been having this on going struggle with a friendship of mine. It's really messed up because me and this friend became pretty close rather soon. Anybody that knows me knows not just anyone can be friends with me. I have a lot of "friends" but I only have a really small amount of close friends. That's just the way I am, I've done the whole popular kid thing and it's just too much work, I'd rather just have a couple good friends that I can depend on and do me.

As well the more friends you have the more chances you have of getting hurt, and Christian ain't about getting hurt. Anyways me & this friend have had numerous fights and live completely different lifestyles, a lot of times Im not even too sure why were friends. But long story short we've been keeping our distance from each other for a while and I'm just wondering if it's best to just end things now? Like I mean, I don't see us really becoming close friends anymore and maybe our friendship just ran it's course?

I know me personally, I'm not someone to hold on to things not worth keeping, so I'm really taking some serious time out and going to think this through.

sigghhh, friends... can't live with them, can't live without them

19 no more...wtf?

Laying down watching a documentary on human trafficking (yeah I'm a huge political/social issues supporter) and someone decides to text me to remind me of what's coming up shortly. My birthday is exactly one month away as of today. June 19th is the dizzaay. It's weird cuz today wasn't the greatest day for me and then I was reminded that I'm getting older and it freaked me out haha! I guess that's apart of life right?

Anyways I still haven't decided what I want to do for my birthday. June is one of the busiest month in the entertainment industry and unfortunately I share my birthday the same weekend as the MMVA award show in Toronto. I haven't decided if I want to incorporate my birthday with those events going on or just do something small call down my closest friends from Ottawa and just get buck wild at a club?

Anyways I'm off to the G Y M, I fell off the wagon today and had Macdonalds and crispers haha.

Here's a pictcha from last year's bday celebration


Hurricane Kelso made me a cheese cake that looked like a lump of butter but it was dammn good. See guys, don't judge a book by it's cover ;)

Christiannnoooo

SS/09

Along with revisiting my past through music, I was also thinking about how much changed in my life from last year at this time till now. I am hoping for bigger and better things to come along this spring/summer. The thing with me is that I'm only happy if I notice progress or positive change has occurred in my life. Last spring/summer, I told myself that I was going to put myself out there within the music and fashion industry and that I did. I met a lot of good people, went to a lot of events, made a lot of good friends and all in all furthered my career. This year I hope to do the same thing along with sustaining the chance to travel and work. It's all about progression, right down your goals and look at them every now and then to make sure your making progress. Here are some pictures from spring/summer 08 enjoy!



Shay & Christian
TREO attack
American Apparel
Fun night
Raphael. Nadia. Christian
Justin ( T.dot Television) Christian
Christian . Karine D (Publicist)
Christian . Nicole H.

Christian & Nebby Neb @ Will's party
Gail & Christian
Christian & Nadia
Christian & Tika
Honey Jam
Brazen Hussy Party

Visiting your past

Today, I took some time to reflect on my past along with planning for my future. Even though I never fully go back to things I did in the past it's always good to visit them once in a while for inspiration, guidance and memories. Something that has been present in my past and is still relevant today is my love for music. I have been singing ever since I was 6 years old. I did my first performance at my aunts high school talent show and ever since then I haven't looked back.
The feeling that can be evoked through music is just so surreal it's really unexplainable. Being on stage, being in the studio, being in the car, in my room, wherever and whenever music is just such an amazing thing to me.

I was going through some of my old cd's today and all these memories came back and so many different emotions came rushing back it was such a russhh! I use to listen to alot of artist like Boys 2 Men, Usher, Aaliyah, Whitney Houston, Nas, old school reggae, Nsync and all those pop artist. I swear revisiting some of those artist and songs today made me feel so good inside and reminded me of how important music is in my life.

I have always wanted to be a professional singer and I began to push in that direction since I was about 13-14. Compared to alot of people, I have had alot of success but at the same time it's not enough. I have had the opportunity to open up shows in my hometown for Marques Houston, Massari, Ray Robinson and a couple others.

I know deep down in my heart that if I continue to push in this industry I will get whatever it is that I want. What I want is to become an international recording artist/top male model. With that being said I am making the proper decisions and progress towards attaining those goals.

I was never one for sharing my information on the internet but I feel that I want people to follow my journey throughout this industry and give others a chance to learn at the same time. A model on my agency Renee Thompson was doing this for her modelling career and I stumbled across it and I loved learning inside tips from her blog and I hope to be able to do that for male models and aspiring young artist.

I'mma leave you with a couple pictures

Fcuk the world & just do you

That's the best way to describe the tip that I'm on these days. I feel soo much better about life and I feel like it's actually time to do me. I'm a very strong and independant individual but at the same time I do tend to care about what people think about me. You know what to an extent I believe that everybody does, you kind of have to. Because I care of what people think about me, I am always questioning my plans before I do them and really living life for other people. I realized this and it's time to change.

I need to live my life for myself and stop trying to please everyone. I have goals and priorities that must come first and in order to meet them their are things that I may have to do in order to get their that people don't agree with and it's too bad. I am old enough to make my own decisions and I know that with whatever decisions I decide to make their can ALWAYS be consequences and I am willing to take the risk.

On that note, I suggest everyone follow their dreams, do what you feel is RIGHT for you and never look back.

Sincerely,

The new me: Christian

Long weekend Sunday

Wrapping up the long weekend early this time around. Last night I went out to celebrate two of my friends birthdays at two seperate clubs. I headed out to Frequency to celebrate Vanessa's birthday and then went down the street to Circa to celebrate Ashley's Birthday.
After partying in vip glass cubes, popping bottles of grey goose, dancing on stage podiums with Tika and meeting up with friends down from Ottawa, I headed over to garden to meet up with Nebby neb.

We got back home at 4 in the AM and I fell asleep around 6 am and had to be up & running for a shoot at 1pm.

I shot with Mckenzie James today for the first time. He's such a dope guy & has accomplished alot of in the Canadian fashion industry. The shoot was short & sweet, didn't waste too much time and I felt good about it.

The thing with modelling for me is trying to find a connection with the photographer, if you guys feel comfortable around each other it's very easy to take direction and collaborate on poses and ideas. This shoot is by far the most "out there"/sexual shoot I have done up to date and I'm happy with how it went.

I'll post a couple of the pictures from the shoot once I get them. In the mean time here are a couple of photos I stole from his blog (http://mckenziejames.blogspot.com)

(This guys names Adam he's only 17. We shot together the day after he shot with Mckenzie James, cool kid)

Don't question it, just go with the flow

I think the title speaks for itself. I've given up on trying to figure out life because I feel that every time I come up with a theory something else happens that makes me question that theory all together. What I'm doing from now on is just going with the flow. On that note, last week I took a break from Toronto and my personal life as a whole. I just needed to clear my head and figure out where and what I wanted to be.

Anyways fast forward to this week & all of a sudden a lot of positive things have been coming my way. I just booked a lead role in a tentative hip hop musical being produced in Toronto. This musical has a lot of industry buzz surrounding it with a reality documentary being filmed during the production of the play along with media exposure on media outlets MTV & War Child. I had a couple castings this week for some summer/fall print ads along with booking a shoot for the upcoming Sunday with Mckenzie James.

Oh & I forgot to add that with the musical it will be heading to New York for the whole month of September, which is huge for me since I have been dying to work in that market in both music and modelling.

Last night I went out to support Aubrey aka Drake at his homecoming concert in Toronto. The show was packed even the vip section felt like the concert floor for how packed it was. I see him once in a while and he's always been a dope dude towards me so I wish him nothing but success in the future. He's not only doing it for himself but for the whole city and that's what sets him apart from the other rappers down here.

Tomorrow Kardinal Offishall is throwing his birthday party @ Circa, depending on how I feel I may hit it up with my weekend fling ting Tika :P.


Christian



* N E W Y O R K B O U N D !

Drake Drizzy Rogers & Dj Lissa Monet @ Shuffle party we went to a whilll ago.

Getting it in

Up & left.. yeah I did it & what? haha! Sometimes in life you just need to get away for a bit. For a while now I haven't been as happy as I was in the past and I couldn't figure it out. The worst thing about me is that I tend to analyze and over think alll the time and not being able to figure out why I wasn't happy anymore frustrated me even more. Long story short, Monday night after the party I packed my ish and got on a train!

I just need time alone, I need to refocus and get my priorities straight. I'll head back to Toronto on friday cuz I have a music meeting to attend that night. The break has been good though, hit the gym this morning hard, eating healthy and just relaxing and absorbing life. You should try it!

Anyways should head to bed now, hitting the gym again tomorrow mawwnin' at 6 am.

Christianoo..

Oh and those pictures from the shoot I did a couple weeks ago, there coming!

Newly Inspired

Tonight I went out to Rockwood Nightclub to celebrate my friend Katrina's birthday with the UOMO label famlay. I must admit, I really needed this night out. Although I didn't drink and I left early being around good people was definetely needed and appreciated.

I got to see my friend Mishee, who is the BOMB! She keeps it soo real and we caught up on things and such.

Anyways, so I've been itching to get back into grind mode concerning music and tonight for some reason encouraged me soo much more. I feel so driven and capable of making things happen again.
I'm doing a little trip to Ottawa tomorrow & while I'm there finish up a couple proposals/plans for my music ish & modelling. I have a meeting on Friday night with a couple producers & i'll be scheduling a meeting with the music managaah for when I get backs to Toronto.

It's on & poppin'.

Christian

Sunday Bloggin'

As I mentioned the other day, I've been feeling a little under the weather concerning life and almost everything in it. Today I took some time out for myself and started really thinking about what it is that I REALLY want in life. I decided that I'm going to start puttting myself and my needs before everything else. That being said, f**K trying to please others, I know the goals that I need to attain and what I must do to get them, if you can't accept my decisions then keep it movin' yahhh digg?

I'm so done with taking into consideration other people's opinions and being judged by other individuals that are not even qualified to make the judgements they are giving. Really now... it's time to do me, a new beginning, a new chapter.

I need to be makin' that good good $$$ and doing taking advantage of the opportunities that lie in front of me, I hope anyone that reads this blog (because I really don't promote it) takes my advice and lives their life for themselves.

Don't be afraid of what you can truly acheive, don't be afraid of putting yourself out there cuz the more risk you take the more of a chance YOU have to get that life that you were suppose to have.

On that note,

I'm signing out

Christiannoo.

Knocks You Down

I haven't updated this blog in a while but trust me life has been nothing but dull. I've been in a weird state of mind these last couple of days. I've been very confused about life and in particular my career. At the moment my longterm goals have remained the same it's just the steps to acheiving those goals that have me all over the place.

I always say that God will give you nothing he can't handle and he has a plan for every individual in the world, but really God give me a break lol. I hate not knowing how things are gunna play out, I'm the worst for that, I've always been the dude that always had a plan and this new lifestyle I've been forced into does not support that.

I'm going to tell anyone aspiring to be in the entertainment industry to truly love what you do. I say that only because you will be faced with alot while your attempting to reach your own personal goals and if you don't love what you do, it's not worth it. This industry is crazy and will break you down if your not ready for it, so take my advice, research it, learn from others mistakes and if you still feel that this is what you need to do in life, then by all means go for it!

Your boy Christian!