Wow, so I'm not trying to fall off on my continuous posting I've been doing so I'm here! Last weekend was absolutely insane. I actually didn't get the chance to go back to Ottawa to celebrate with my family due to how busy it was. I was working everyday, day & night at the club, my chola Nebby's birthday came up & soo much more. I literally had 5 hours of sleep from friday - sunday.
I celebrated thanksgiving last night with Nebby & Cris. I brought the groceries/Nebby cooked. It was pretty dope. I love hanging out with them, so real and refreshing compared to some of the people I'm exposed to.... that's another story.
Anyways I am feeling really good about life right now and I have a couple things coming up so I will keep you posted. I have a meeting with a new agency tomorrow therefore I gotta head to the gym today, get the hair cut & update my photos.
On that note, I'm out
God bless
Christian
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Thursday, October 8, 2009
My promise
No one ever said this would be easy, but if it's something you feel you cant live without, put your all into it and never give up. I'm going to take a huge risk right now & live my life the way I want to. I'm gunna put my all into this dream I have been having since I was six years old. I promised myself that I would be a sucessful artist & I am going to follow through with that promise. I am writing this letter to ask for the strength and guidance from the Lord above to help me in this journey. I am going to put everything in this past and look towards the future. I know deep down that this was something I was suppose to do in life, there's no doubt about it. I took the chance and moved from the only home I knew to go after my dreams and I will be damned if I don't make it come true.
Please believe, that things happen in your life for a reason, if you have a gift use it!
Chris
Please believe, that things happen in your life for a reason, if you have a gift use it!
Chris
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
Things that I hope to accomplish in the future!
So I am and have always been someone that plans out my life. Every week I write down goals and aspirations that I want to accomplish during the week or in the near future. That being said, I decided to do a post on some of the goals that I hope to accomplish in the (near/far) future.
1) This seems as it will be my lifetime goal, which is to be completely happy & satisfied with my life. I'm not even sure if this is possible for me, since I know how much of a perfectionist I am. It drives me insane sometimes, I always feel that I can do just a little bit better.
2) A sucessful singing career. I know that a lot of people in Toronto may not no yet, but I am and have been a singer for many years. I got a development deal and worked with a record label down in Toronto during my high school years & opened up various big concerts in Ottawa during that period as well. I took some time away from music but I am slowly beginning to make my way back into it. It's truly my passion & I have given up soo much to pursue this career that I MUST sucessfully complete this goal before my time is up.
3) Have a billboard - I have been modelling for almost a year now & have been fairly sucessful with it. One of my biggest goals in this career is to have my face featured on a huge billboard downtown.
4) Help with various humanitarian campaigns - A lot of people may not know this but I am a huge advocate for helping in eliminating and creating awareness for a couple causes in the world. I want to help in creating awareness for HIV/AIDS. I think that this epidemic has affected way too many people in the world & I truly believe that with the proper amount of education and methods of preventing the spread of HIV will help make our world a better place.
I want to help be a part of a cause that will also help people understand and appreciate all people of different colour. I have been faced with racism throughout my life & I know how much it can affect somebody. I feel that no one should be judged based on the colour of their skin & I want to help people understand how important it is to treat ALL people equally.
Another cause that I want to help create awareness to is human trafficking. I stumbled on a documentary when I was younger about the issue and have been trying to spread word of it ever since. I did a showcase and project about the issue in high school and even sent information over to Amnesty International about it.
5) I want to travel around the world. I want to be able to say that I have visited everywhere in the world. I feel it will make me more cultured and be able to share my experiences with my family friends and peers.
6) My ultimate goal is to be able to say when I'm old and looking back on everything is to be able to make sure that my family is taken care of. I want to make sure that my mother has everything she ever wanted, my brothers and sisters have money to complete their secondary education and a good start on their life. I want to make sure I live my life with no regrets and be living proof that if you put your mind to something you can achieve anything.
1) This seems as it will be my lifetime goal, which is to be completely happy & satisfied with my life. I'm not even sure if this is possible for me, since I know how much of a perfectionist I am. It drives me insane sometimes, I always feel that I can do just a little bit better.
2) A sucessful singing career. I know that a lot of people in Toronto may not no yet, but I am and have been a singer for many years. I got a development deal and worked with a record label down in Toronto during my high school years & opened up various big concerts in Ottawa during that period as well. I took some time away from music but I am slowly beginning to make my way back into it. It's truly my passion & I have given up soo much to pursue this career that I MUST sucessfully complete this goal before my time is up.
3) Have a billboard - I have been modelling for almost a year now & have been fairly sucessful with it. One of my biggest goals in this career is to have my face featured on a huge billboard downtown.
4) Help with various humanitarian campaigns - A lot of people may not know this but I am a huge advocate for helping in eliminating and creating awareness for a couple causes in the world. I want to help in creating awareness for HIV/AIDS. I think that this epidemic has affected way too many people in the world & I truly believe that with the proper amount of education and methods of preventing the spread of HIV will help make our world a better place.
I want to help be a part of a cause that will also help people understand and appreciate all people of different colour. I have been faced with racism throughout my life & I know how much it can affect somebody. I feel that no one should be judged based on the colour of their skin & I want to help people understand how important it is to treat ALL people equally.
Another cause that I want to help create awareness to is human trafficking. I stumbled on a documentary when I was younger about the issue and have been trying to spread word of it ever since. I did a showcase and project about the issue in high school and even sent information over to Amnesty International about it.
5) I want to travel around the world. I want to be able to say that I have visited everywhere in the world. I feel it will make me more cultured and be able to share my experiences with my family friends and peers.
6) My ultimate goal is to be able to say when I'm old and looking back on everything is to be able to make sure that my family is taken care of. I want to make sure that my mother has everything she ever wanted, my brothers and sisters have money to complete their secondary education and a good start on their life. I want to make sure I live my life with no regrets and be living proof that if you put your mind to something you can achieve anything.
Sunday, October 4, 2009
Why I am the way I am
I read this & felt it described me to the tttttttttteeeee! I'm always told about my multiple personalities along with the fact that my mood can change every minute! I definetely act very irrational sometimes when upset & love the people I love HARD & could care less about the people I don't like even HARDER!
Dammnnn, I make sense now...
GEMENI
THE Zodiacal Sign of Gemini - The Twins commences on May 21st, but for seven days it does, not come into its full power until on or about May 28th.
From this date onwards it is in full strength until June 20th, and is then for seven days, gradually losing strength on account of becoming overlapped by the "cusp" of the incoming sign -Cancer.
The people who were born in this period are widely known for their dual personalities and ability to change mood from moment to moment. Although they hate to be tied down, they make lively, entertaining and romantic partners, even if they can be rather fickle if bored or unhappy.
The twin sides of their nature are perpetually pulling in opposite directions. Their brains are subtle and brilliant but they usually "lack continuity of purpose".
Of all people they are the most difficult to understand; in temperament they are hot and cold almost at the same moment. They love with one side of their nature and they are often critical or dislike with the other people. Their sharp wit and excellent powers of observation make them a good raconteur, although they have a tendency to exaggerate which can cause trouble with their relationships.
Such people are usually excellent in diplomacy, and dazzle their listeners by, their wit and brilliancy, but they usually leave them no wiser than they were at the start.
It is difficult even for them to understand what they want to achieve. At heart they are ambitious for social position; but when obtained they have already tired of it, and are ready to go in for something else or for something totally opposite. Being natural communicators these people do not suffer fools gladly; so once they are attracted to people, they have to ensure that they are not dull or mundane. They will no doubt spending ages chatting to anyone about every subject under the sun, just to keep feeding their ever active and inquisitive mind.
If taken as they are, in their own moods, they are the most delightful people imaginable, but one must not attempt to hold them or to expect them to be constant to their ideas or plans.
They believe they are truthful, constant, faithful, and so they may be at the moment, but every moment to them has a separate existence.
These people have an ability to see quickly the weak points in those they meet, and can reduce all to nothing by wit, sarcasm, or mimicry.
Almost all of them are great talkers and usually very much in demand socially because they are so entertaining. Gemini is the life of the party.
They often succeed the best, as far as money is concerned, but their more suitable career is generally that which requires diplomacy, tact, and finesse. The representatives of lower types are unscrupulous in finance and untruthful. They often make successful gamblers and company promoters of "get-rich-quick" schemes.
Either type make hosts of friends and are kind-hearted and generous to the person who fills their thoughts at the moment, but "out of sight, out of mind" explains their fits of "forgetfulness" as nothing else can.
In all matters of affection they are human puzzles. They can love passionately and yet be inconstant at the same moment, and it is only their shield of diplomacy and exquisite tact that keeps them from often making a mess of their lives.
Dammnnn, I make sense now...
GEMENI
THE Zodiacal Sign of Gemini - The Twins commences on May 21st, but for seven days it does, not come into its full power until on or about May 28th.
From this date onwards it is in full strength until June 20th, and is then for seven days, gradually losing strength on account of becoming overlapped by the "cusp" of the incoming sign -Cancer.
The people who were born in this period are widely known for their dual personalities and ability to change mood from moment to moment. Although they hate to be tied down, they make lively, entertaining and romantic partners, even if they can be rather fickle if bored or unhappy.
The twin sides of their nature are perpetually pulling in opposite directions. Their brains are subtle and brilliant but they usually "lack continuity of purpose".
Of all people they are the most difficult to understand; in temperament they are hot and cold almost at the same moment. They love with one side of their nature and they are often critical or dislike with the other people. Their sharp wit and excellent powers of observation make them a good raconteur, although they have a tendency to exaggerate which can cause trouble with their relationships.
Such people are usually excellent in diplomacy, and dazzle their listeners by, their wit and brilliancy, but they usually leave them no wiser than they were at the start.
It is difficult even for them to understand what they want to achieve. At heart they are ambitious for social position; but when obtained they have already tired of it, and are ready to go in for something else or for something totally opposite. Being natural communicators these people do not suffer fools gladly; so once they are attracted to people, they have to ensure that they are not dull or mundane. They will no doubt spending ages chatting to anyone about every subject under the sun, just to keep feeding their ever active and inquisitive mind.
If taken as they are, in their own moods, they are the most delightful people imaginable, but one must not attempt to hold them or to expect them to be constant to their ideas or plans.
They believe they are truthful, constant, faithful, and so they may be at the moment, but every moment to them has a separate existence.
These people have an ability to see quickly the weak points in those they meet, and can reduce all to nothing by wit, sarcasm, or mimicry.
Almost all of them are great talkers and usually very much in demand socially because they are so entertaining. Gemini is the life of the party.
They often succeed the best, as far as money is concerned, but their more suitable career is generally that which requires diplomacy, tact, and finesse. The representatives of lower types are unscrupulous in finance and untruthful. They often make successful gamblers and company promoters of "get-rich-quick" schemes.
Either type make hosts of friends and are kind-hearted and generous to the person who fills their thoughts at the moment, but "out of sight, out of mind" explains their fits of "forgetfulness" as nothing else can.
In all matters of affection they are human puzzles. They can love passionately and yet be inconstant at the same moment, and it is only their shield of diplomacy and exquisite tact that keeps them from often making a mess of their lives.
Living in the past...
I must admit, I am a huge victim of living in the past. I'm always remembering all the things that I use to do, the way things use to be & how much fun I used to have. It's really not a healthy way to live your life and some how or another you gotta learn to face reality & realize it's not ever going to be how it USE to be. Your past is your past for a reason, it cannot be changed and it shouldn't be either. You experienced all those feelings and things for a reason to let you know that they are capable of maintaining and there is a way to get them.
As of tonight, I am through visiting my past & I am devoting all my energy to the present and the future. I mean the future is all I have to look forward to and let's face it I'm not getting any younger.
The crazy thing is that when I actually concentrate on my future and put in work to attaining my goals I usually do pretty well. Am I subcontiously afraid of my own sucess? Am I standing in my own way? Not anymore.
Follow your dreams, you never know where you'll end up!
Christian
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Nightlife
I'm not too sure what it is but now a days I'm NEVER out. Sometimes I get like this but usually not for this long. I'm not sure if it's because of the lack of good weather we've been having down here, getting older or because I work in clubs now?!? Maybe a lil bit of the "treee".
I'm soo bored and over going to the same parties, seeing the same people, drinking the same drinks & pretending I'm happy to see them when really I couldn't care less LOL. Very blunt but very true and the funny thing about it is that most of the people there feel the exact same way. There usually there as the same with me due to some sort of obligation we feel because of someone either celebrating/throwing/inviting us to the party. Whatever the case may be I'm over it, unless it's business related or a really good friend of mine you won't catch me hob nobbing anymore... well maybe not at all but not as frequent... let's not play a dude still needs to get his buzz on haha.
The weather just drives me insane, winter really? I've had enough of the cold weather and it's just beginning. I swear I was born here but honestly I've never been about this weather. And when the weather isn't popping it forces me to stay in and just chill.
Lastly, I bartend at a couple clubs during the week/end and maybe because I'm there and I'm actually seeing what goes on at clubs on a regular basis I'm not that "bout it" anymore.
Meh...
But once again, I'm a gemeni and my mood as well as my personality changes regularly so don't be surprised if next week I remove this post and you see me drinking Moet at the club.
New changes
So I feel like I go through these type of changes far too much. I really just feel like I haven't necessarily found what's right for me in the sense of my support system for my career. I am signed to one of the top modelling agencies in Toronto & to tell you the truth I don't believe my potential is being challenged. Although I know this industry is as cut throat as it get, I just don't see how I am being overlooked constantly by the people "in charge" of my every day schedule.
With me, I know that I am very impatient and that has cost me a lot in the past but at the same time I have gained a lot from not putting up with certain things as well. Anybody who truly knows me know's that if I'm unhappy I do whatever it takes to get out of that situation. Here's my dilemma, I am really thinking of doing a lot more commercial modelling instead of high fashion stuff & with that I would have to switch agencies. I feel that I could do well in commercial modelling and being in Toronto commercial stuff is where the moneys at. But I don't know what it is, if it's my pride or my loyalty but everytime I am ready to up and leave something keeps holding me back.
I always say that it's only when your heart has given up that's when you'll be able to leave and in this case it seems about right. Maybe I'm just so concentrated on proving the doubters wrong including some of my management team is why I'm not about leaving. BUT then again at the end of the day why have haters or oponents if people on your own team are rooting against you?!?
It's time to pack up my bags & get the F&**K outta here...
I'll fill you in on how that turns out!
Christian
The Secrets of a Black Boy
Wow, it's been a while since I've posted anything but it's not to say that nothings been happening in my life, just not enough time to update. I'm going to try and update my blog as frequently as possible, since it is one of the ways that I am attempting to document my life. Anyways long story short, I went out to see the play "The Secrets of a Black Boy", with a good friend of mine Tika Simone.
The play was mainly about six black male characters that all lived very different lives and were struggling with their own personal issues that were for the most part kept secret from the rest of the world. This play touched on various subjects such as; domestic abuse, stereotypes, sexuality, poverty amongst others.
I personally really enjoyed the play especially the second half. I found that the second half seemed a lot more developed and the characters had issues or "secrets" that were a lot more relevant to today's day and age that haven't been getting a lot of exposure.
One of the many messages I got out of seeing this play was the reminder of not to judge a book by it's cover. The play demonstrated that each character acted a certain way possibly due to certain things and events that have occurred in the past that may or may not be evident to a person that hasn't taken the time to get to know them. I really feel that this is a message that society often hears but doesn't take it seriously.
Tonight was the last night for the play & I must say that it was definetely a well put together play and it was written by one of Toronto's own Darren Anthony brother of Trey Anthony creator of "Da Kink in my Hair".
Christian
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