New changes

So I feel like I go through these type of changes far too much. I really just feel like I haven't necessarily found what's right for me in the sense of my support system for my career. I am signed to one of the top modelling agencies in Toronto & to tell you the truth I don't believe my potential is being challenged. Although I know this industry is as cut throat as it get, I just don't see how I am being overlooked constantly by the people "in charge" of my every day schedule.

With me, I know that I am very impatient and that has cost me a lot in the past but at the same time I have gained a lot from not putting up with certain things as well. Anybody who truly knows me know's that if I'm unhappy I do whatever it takes to get out of that situation. Here's my dilemma, I am really thinking of doing a lot more commercial modelling instead of high fashion stuff & with that I would have to switch agencies. I feel that I could do well in commercial modelling and being in Toronto commercial stuff is where the moneys at. But I don't know what it is, if it's my pride or my loyalty but everytime I am ready to up and leave something keeps holding me back.

I always say that it's only when your heart has given up that's when you'll be able to leave and in this case it seems about right. Maybe I'm just so concentrated on proving the doubters wrong including some of my management team is why I'm not about leaving. BUT then again at the end of the day why have haters or oponents if people on your own team are rooting against you?!?

It's time to pack up my bags & get the F&**K outta here...

I'll fill you in on how that turns out!

Christian